One thing I forgot to add to the previous post:

All that I wrote matters in the sense that it's in my past, so it has defined me for who I am up to this day.

But it does not matter because my heart is being held by another now, and my heart is healing. It is the closest it has been to being completely healed since before I met that girl I was talking about in the previous post. So what matters is that my heart has become strong, and it is also learned to trust and love again. This love is not the same, and it is different, but that is what makes this love important. That is what makes it significant to my life now. I'm not living in the past anymore. I am looking to the future, while being cautious not to repeat the mistakes of the past.